Last night was the least amount of fun I have had playing Thursday volleyball. I had a woman on my team that I used to play with on Tuesdays with the group that had a lot of low skill players. I really do not enjoy playing with her at all as she is wildly inconsistent. My frame of mind went south as soon as I found out she was on my team, which is a failure on my part. We only had three on our team so there was nowhere to hide.
My play was inconsistent and each unforced error that myself/our team committed just frustrated me more, making me play worse instead of better. We only won one game during the two hours of play. I am hoping to be able to avoid playing with her going forward. She is a nice person but just like anything in life there are people you like doing things with and people you dislike doing those same things with.
I feel like I have a large backlog of videos I need to get done this weekend. I need to come up with some sort of mental framework to get some of these knocked out. Not only do I have a limited time to shoot content with the ET Max, the Tesla FSD free month ends in 11 days so I have a handful of scenarios I wanted to make videos on. I’ll do my best to get what I can done. I should have a little more free time as going forward I will likely only be playing pickleball one morning a weekend instead of two.
I will have to mix video creation in with other things I would like to get done like catching more of the US Open as it ends on Saturday. Last night as I was having dinner after playing I was briefly talking to a table of women that had just played in the tournament during the day, it was cool.
I have found myself feeling a little emotionally numb recently. I feel callous and cynical towards women for a number of reasons both from first hand experiences and the culture in general. I think so many women have unrealistic expectations of the dynamics of a relationship which has been fostered by decades of female role definition mutation. Ironically the push for female equity has resulted in inequity with what men are expected to bring to the equation versus a woman.
When women get angry if a man says women and men are not equal it tells me they have been indoctrinated into this mindset. Men and women are not equal to each other, they both have different strengths and weaknesses that are meant to compliment one another, not be a source of contention. Venting here of course matters very little. Suffice it to say that my current outlook on finding a partner that compliments and enhances my quality of life is on the dimmer side of things.
Last year ironically I was proclaiming how great it was to have reversed my outlook in this same area in the span of a couple weeks. Could it happen again? Sure. Am I optimistic about that happening at this date and time? Nope.
Last night after work I decided to roll on over to the US Open once again on my Patton. This time I had on a small backpack that had one pickleball paddle and ball in it, just in case…
There were a number of matches still going on. I watched a few of them while eating pizza and drinking a couple black cherry vodka seltzers. I had one woman that came up to me and talked to me for a little while about the wheel and other things. I got the sense that she was slightly drunk and slightly flirtatious.
If I wanted I probably could have played. As matches finished the courts were backfilled with players just playing pick up games. After drinking a few I didn’t really want to get out there and potentially embarrass myself. As usual I got asked about the wheel several times and stared at much, much more. The one guy that just came off losing his playoff game even asked me about it, funny. I will probably go over there at least one more time if not twice before the tournament ends Saturday evening.
Tonight I am signed up for another volleyball session. I have been feeling a little beat up lately so I am hoping a couple Advil will mask the pain so I can play up to par.
Here is what happens when I asked AI to come up with an abstract version of myself after I got my haircut. It is bizarre, to say the least.
Last year at this time my garage was filled with kitchen/bathroom cabinetry. I also went to dinner with Don who had recently lost his dog Lucky, whom I was very fond of.
After work last night I headed to go get my hair cut. I have extended a week or two longer than I normally do between cuts and I was feeling shaggy. I had Suzanne as my stylist whom I have had a number of times. She always seems happy to see me and does a good job on my hair, or at least I think she does.
By the time I got done it was 5:30, the heart of rush hour. I decided to give Tesla supervised full self driving a pretty significant test, to see if it could navigate the sea of vehicles cleanly and get me to my house, without intervention. It did it cleanly. This latest iteration of FSD truly acts more and more human in it’s reactions and responses to situations. There were multiple times I was thinking that if I was driving I would make this decision and just as the thought entered my head, the car did it. There is none of that startling braking or unexplained direction change. It basically just works. I need to make the time to shoot some more videos about it as well as test other features.
I did several things last night, one of them was install a new kickstand on my V13 to replace the unit that was bent and deformed from it’s journey with UPS. I got a sweet deal on the part, paying probably a fifth of what I normally would pay via a parts blowout one dealer was having. Installation took 5 minutes and I now have the ability to have the wheel standing on it’s own without being overly tipsy.
I have been plowing through episodes of Fallout, the new series on Amazon Prime based on a popular video game that I never played. Despite having no real game experience I have latched onto the series and have been enjoying it quite a bit. End of world as we know it scenarios always appeal to me, for some odd reason.
Last night as I was walking Elsa after work I found myself thinking about some of the changes I have made that I have sustained in the last few months. Walking Elsa was one of them. For most of her life formalized walks were not a thing, I would just let her outside to do her thing and she would almost immediately return once she does her business. However now the first thing we do when I get home is leash her up and walk her to the end of our development and back. It gives her a set time to poop, exercise and the walking on sidewalk also helps keep her nails in check. When we started she was very resistant but now I think she almost kind of likes and looks forward to it. It also gives me an opportunity to interact with any neighbors we see along the route.
I also have implemented my own daily walks during the work week where I walk the outer perimeter of the government complex which is about a mile, every afternoon. I put my air pods in and just let my mind wander as I stroll the pathway. It is a good way to break up the monotony of a job that has me sitting in front of a computer 8 hours a day. There are other things that have recently shifted. I now try to shave several times a week instead of every week or two. I also pay more attention to what I am wearing. Looking good is tied in with feeling good.
I think one of the bigger things I have been trying to change is being more open to interacting with other people. I am an introvert by nature but I realize that especially with being single, that tendency can lead to isolation that just is not good for me. I am trying to keep that door open, sticking a two by four in there if necessary to keep it open.
Last year the cabinet/counter project had begun in earnest. I also had started mentioning Christine in the blog regularly as I was happy to have a fresh start with someone that was a genuine person. I’m not sure if that relationship would have continued on or not if other events had not unfolded. If I have learned anything in the last year it’s that I value my peace more than anything else. If I can not find that peace in a relationship with a person I would rather just be alone. That statement is a big one as I have spent years upon years doing exactly the opposite of that, sacrificing my peace for someone else.
On Friday after work I met up with Clay at Brookside Market to hang. The place was an absolute zoo because everyone wanted a burger from the burger tent. Evidently this guy recently won the best burger in Naples award and the word is out. The line was at least 50 people long.
I got there before Clay so I went in and grabbed a beer. I was surprised when my neighbor and his wife that live a couple doors down from me said hi. Evidently they are frequent patrons of the place and come a couple times a week. When Clay and his One Wheel buddy Cam got there they hopped right in the burger line. I talked to them as they waited and then threw Clay a couple bucks to grab me a grilled cheese when he finally got to order. I rode the ET Max there and got the customary looks of bewilderment. It makes me laugh.
I both played and watched pickleball on Saturday and Sunday. I played with the woman I am friends with at Talis Park just like I have for almost a year. I’m not quite sure what that is going to look like going forward since she sold her place and is moving out this week. The other residents there we play with all know, like, and enjoy playing with me so I might still show up if invited.
I also rode an EUC over to the US Open both days to watch some of the tournament. It was packed. I grabbed myself some nice pickleball shirts to play in, lunch on Sunday and answered a dozen questions about EUCs while I was there.
On Sunday afternoon I made arrangements to meet up with Jason to do some riding. I suggested he just meet me at my house and we can leave from there. Although I have ridden with him a number of times he never had been to my home yet. As usual Elsa was timid but after awhile allowed Jason to pet her, a little.
Before we headed out I let him try the various wheels I have obtained since I last saw him a couple months ago, the Mten Mini, V13, V8S, and the demo ET Max. He couldn’t ride the Mini but he liked the other three wheels. For the main ride I was on the ET Max and Jason was on his Veteran Patton.
We rode to the beach via the Greenway. I took him on some routes he had not been on before, including a brief stop at the Cabana for a beer. By the time we got back my ET Max was getting low on battery. I encouraged Jason to try the ET Max some more, just inside my development since it is closed off to traffic. He agreed to try it some more.
He did a number of loops up and down the road. I eventually hopped on my V13 to follow him and see how he was liking it. I was about 100 feet behind him when I saw it happen, a speed wobble. Wobbles are a thing while riding EUCs where the wheel can start oscillating back and forth and can amplify. If they are not controlled they can result in a rider coming off the wheel. Well all of a sudden I see Jason wobbling and within a second or two he fell off the wheel backwards, ass first. The wheel tumbled end over end as he came to a stop. Geezus.
I rode up and checked on him. I think he was embarrassed and angry that he fell. He almost immediately got back up and hopped back on the wheel. I think he didn’t want to let the crash deter him. He did a few more slower laps as I waited in the driveway. When he finally stopped riding I could tell he was a bit freaked out. He said that was the worst crash he ever had. I told him I thought he was doing at least 20 when he went down. He said he was doing closer to 30 based on the wheel speedometer.
He said the wheel started to wobble and he just could not bring it under control. The ET Max is 20 pounds heavier than his Veteran Patton and has a much taller profile. Jason is not a big/tall guy and only weighs around 135lbs so I think it was physically difficult for him to control the wobble. When he came back I got to do a quick inspection of the wheel. It seemed at first that it just took some scrapes on the front metal frame which was good news. Jason hung for a little bit and drank a Cayman Jack with me as we talked about the crash and other things.
After he headed home I gave the wheel another once over. This time I realized there was more damage than I initially thought. The rear top frame took a shot that bent the metal in and down, misaligning it with the top cover, ugh. I needed to try to fix that. Demo wheels routinely get beaten up but I typically am not the one that does it. Sunday night I did charge the wheel to full as I intended to do a range test on Monday, the day I took off.
After playing pickleball I stopped and got myself a deadblow hammer on the way home, the tool I hoped to use to fix the bent frame. These type of hammers have no rebound and generate a lot more impact force. It took some patience but after a lot of Forged in Fire style hammering I got the bent metal close to it’s original shape which made me feel better. I didn’t wind up pushing off for my range test until almost 2PM, later than I hoped.
The ride out to my old house was long, totaling over three hours and windy, which is never fun. The cross wind made it difficult at times for me to stay in the bike lane and puts strain on my lower body which has to fight the wind pressure. When I rolled by my old house I didn’t see anything noticeably different other than a pile of mulch in the driveway. It always feels weird when I go by my old place. It’s not so much nostalgia as much as being thankful I am no longer chained to the self imposed constraints that living there placed upon me.
When I stopped and checked my roughly halfway stats I thought I should be in the clear to get home. It turned out to be much more challenging than expected. The wheel started to generate low battery beeps around 49 miles into the ride. The bad news was I had 3-4 miles remaining to get home. Those miles were long and slow as I had to reduce speed greatly to make sure I could get home without pushing the wheel. I was underwhelmed with the range I wound up getting, around 53 miles.
I was beat up and tired after the ride. I spent the remainder of the night working editing the video. I was so tired that I didn’t even to open the three boxes that came for me on Monday. One of those boxes was my new GoPro 12.
Yesterday the news that OJ died hit the news. I had not heard he was even sick but evidently he died from prostate cancer. I also did not realize he was 76 years old. I still remember quite clearly his murder trial in 92. I remember I was at the beach with my first wife and her family as we watched some of it on TV. His trial will go down as one of the most infamous in history which seemingly resulted in a man that clearly murdered two people walking free. I am not a subscriber to heaven and hell ideas but if there is a hell, OJ certainly would be roasting in it right now. Adios Juice.
Last night was volleyball night. The weather forecast was bad with high winds and rain predicted. Most of the people that were going to play canceled as a result. However we did still wind up with 8 hardcore players. We waited maybe a half hour until the steady rain stopped and then played in spotty drizzle from there on. Play was actually pretty fun and despite a wet ball I played decent, better than the prior week for sure. We played a little later than normal because of the late start.
One of the women that I played with shares the same name as my ex, although spelled differently. It felt weird calling out her name as well as congratulating her on good plays. (she is very good) It was a weird sort of deja vu.
Afterwards I decided to go to Carrabas to grab dinner. It was nearly empty with just myself and some rich old woman at the bar. She had a diamond on her finger that looked like a small satellite and she was talking about her Bentley. Helen was telling me about some commotion that happened there earlier when some clueless woman allowed her kid to watch a movie on an Ipad so loud that half of the restaurant could hear it. It turned into quite the fiasco when they asked her to turn it down. People are idiots.
So since my trip to the ER a few weeks ago with severe left side chest pains I of course have been monitoring how I feel. For awhile after the visit I continued to have pain in the area if I breathed deeply or suddenly. Later the pain moved to my shoulder blade on the same left side, it was very odd. However for the past several days I haven’t really felt anything unusual and I would like to keep it that way, knock on wood. I have been wondering if I would develop shingles as my buddy did after severe chest pains. Knock on wood again, nothing so far.
Just this morning I decided to give myself another extended weekend, taking Monday off. With the ET Max in hand I have a ton of riding and editing to do. I also like the idea of short work weeks, a lot.
Last year I was mulling over why it was going to cost so much to get gutters installed, along with a few other things. I also had just unloaded my second and final piece of property in Lehigh Acres, taking more than 60% loss and not giving a damn.
Yesterday my second mirrored visor for my LS2 helmet arrived. The first one I ordered was for the wrong model and would not quite fit. The new one on the other hand snapped right in with no tools in a matter of seconds. The mirrored finish just looks way cooler, IMO.
Last night I went out on my first official ride on the ET Max (meaning I recorded it). I zipped around the streets in my area and quickly found myself very comfortable on this big 100lb+ wheel. It’s powerful, good looking, and fun.
I got out a little later in the evening so I didn’t have a ton of time since I wanted to get the video edited as well before heading to bed. I’m looking forward to testing and enjoying this wheel. If things go well there is strong chance I may be adding one to my collection of wheels permanently.
Last year I finally came to the revelation of where my acute sciatic pain was originating from, my bed.
For my last day off I thought I would double up on my exercise by doing a lower body session followed by yoga. Before doing so I ran to the nearby Walmart/FedEx store to pick up the ET Max demo wheel that FedEx lied about the day prior. I was glad I brought my hand truck as this box was 130lbs plus.
Doing weight training on my legs prior to doing yoga was not the best idea. A lot of the holds we do require leg strength and I found a lot of them more difficult than normal after the workout. Oh well.
I’m not sure if it was the double workout but after lunch I felt extremely tired. I went and laid in my bed for maybe 20 minutes, never falling asleep but just feeling wiped. I rebounded and then got back to work.
I had to do some work on the ET Max before it was going to be ready for testing. The power distribution board had failed and a replacement was in the box. I never had replaced that particular component but it appeared straight forward. After less than an hour of work I had the repair completed and the wheel was ready to roll however I only did a very brief test ride just to verify functionality. The full testing will begin the remainder of this week and weekend.
I wound down my 4 day weekend chilling with Elsa. I really enjoyed the time and look forward to giving myself more extended weekends on a more regular basis.
Last year at this time I was keeping busy with new home related things and I hinted at 2023 becoming a very good year. I realized that what I was referring to was I had just started seeing Christine around this time last year and I was feeling hopeful about where that could go. Unfortunately for both her and I it became a soap opera because of a third party that had other ideas.
I’m now on the final day of my four day weekend. It has been quite a busy extended weekend so far, in a good way. I worked on getting the overhead light area that I installed in the guest bathroom last week trimmed off. I installed a small piece of molding along the leading edge, caulked the sides and filled the screw holes. It could probably still use some touch up paint work yet but it doesn’t look bad.
I also got to use my Dewalt power brad nailer for the first time. It is nice, allowing me to pop in the brad nails that hold the trim in place easily. I went around the fence line and popped some more brads into the boards that were a bit loose as well, it was sort of fun.
I played a lot of pickleball, surprise surprise. I played everyday since Friday, including yesterday. I met my work group to play after going to the gym prior. I got to use my new Proton paddle for the first time, I really like it. Yesterday I played pickleball straight through the eclipse. It was barely visible in Florida so it didn’t break my heart.
I also got to hang a bird feeder in the back yard. I have had a hook for one mounted since December but have neglected to get a feeder to hang on it. I picked out a nice blue feeder, filled it with bird food and hung it up.
Within a few hours I saw my first birds and squirrel utilize the feeder which made me smile. I may actually get a second feeder as the one I bought is more for small birds. I saw a blue jay struggling to stay on the perch. The squirrel is funny to watch as he hangs upside down from the fence while pulling out the seed.
On Saturday night I did a 3 hour plus live stream. During it I opened up the V13 that I traded for. I was a bit bummed to see the kickstand got smashed in during shipping somehow, getting pushed up against the tire to the point where it could not turn.
I have done a lot of video editing over the weekend posting three additional videos. I still have a bunch in my head that I want to get shot and edited. I was supposed to get ANOTHER wheel delivered on Monday, a demo wheel from a dealer. I worked my schedule so that I would be home all afternoon when it was supposed to arrive since it required a signature. All of a sudden I get an email from FedEx around 4:30 saying they could not deliver the package because nobody was home, WTF.
FedEx never was at my house and I double checked my Ring cameras to verify it. It annoyed the F out of me but I am used to FedEx pulling this shit. I went in and changed the delivery to go to the FedEx store at a nearby Walmart, I’ll just grab it there. I just love when FedEx lies.
I plan to get a weight session and yoga class in today and then will likely fill the rest of the day with messing with this new wheel and whatever else I feel like getting done. It’s been a very enjoyable extended weekend. I feel like I need to extend them more often. Here are the other videos I posted.
Last night I had my weekly volleyball session. It was the first time since I started playing Thursdays that my team lost more than it won. We had one guy on our team that really did not have the skills he should have to play with this group. I played ok in all aspects of the game except hitting. I hit a number of balls into the net which frustrated the F out of me. My legs just were not getting me out of the sand as my knees felt a little extra creaky. I still had fun but losing always turns down the enjoyment a few notches.
After playing I treated myself to a dinner at Brunina’s with my favorite bartender Megan. Since Easter has passed a decent amount of snowbirds have flocked north making the bar less full. I found out Megan is friends with Deb who I dated briefly back in 2013. Deb is also good friends with Cindy. It’s a small world.
Out of the blue this morning I decided to give myself a long weekend, putting in to take both Monday and Tuesday off, providing me with a nice four day weekend. I’ll put it to good use. The V13 that I traded for is supposed to arrive tomorrow and I have no less than a half dozen video ideas in my pipeline that I would like to get out there. Of course there are tons of other things that will keep my attention along the way.
Last year I continued with my string of home improvements, this time getting my smart garage door opener installed. I wish I kept accurate track of just how much I have spent on home improvements since moving. I’m pretty confident it’s crossed the 50k mark.
Yesterday I mounted my suction cup GoPro mount to the glass roof of the Tesla to capture the new FSD in action. When I first got my Tesla years ago I did a LOT of Tesla content but that has pretty much dried up for the last couple years. I recorded both my drive to and from work.
On the way to work I intervened once to facilitate making a right turn out onto a busy roadway. The car was being cautious, I was being less so, relying on hard acceleration to get me merged in. On the way home the car did so with zero help from me. I did nothing but babysit the steering wheel and pedals, it was very impressive.
I ran to Costco last night and put FSD to it’s first night time test and it again passed with flying colors, taking me from the Costco parking lot to my house with zero interventions. I am very impressed with this latest iteration of full self driving and would love to have it on my car full time but I just can’t pay $200 a month for it, that’s stupid. If Tesla was smart they would drop the price by 50-75% and make up for it with a much a greater buy in rate. Here are the two videos of the trips, there will be more to come.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSRbXZlwsQ0
I got to remove the compression stocking this morning for hopefully the last time and take a normal shower. It’s now a wait and see to determine if the problem veins disappear as they should. I played pickleball yesterday with the compression stocking on which was technically outside what I should be doing but I got through it ok.
Last year I had two entries. The first one was a state of mind dump that was related to my ex. After reading this and realizing everything I allowed to happen after that point I just had to shake my head in disgust. I thought I had finally seen through the bullshit, seeing the error in my ways, or so it seemed. The second post was describing the whirlwind of improvements I had set in motion. The first few months at the new house were very, very busy.
