Personality

It’s odd how things come to mind. Yesterday we took a break from the labor and took the Vette to a pizza joint for lunch. As we were sitting there I was doing some people watching. I noticed a big bunch of people, a bunch of what seemed outwardly happy people. Lot of laughing, joking around etc. I generally don’t act like that, unless I’m drunk. I don’t laugh a ton but not because I am miserable. I began to analyze why that is. I often have people that don’t know me well tell me how serious I seem. It’s ironic because that is about 180 degrees from how I actually am. I think what it comes down to is I am a naturally shy person. Plus I suck at making small talk which makes me steer away from starting up spontaneous conversations. I also have some sort of issue with my brain that at times will make me mumble, talk too fast or just be plain hard to understand. It frustrates the hell out of me. After a few drinks, all those reservations seem to evaporate. So I guess I need to either drink more or try to act like I have been. Easier said than done.