Defeated

That is the best adjective to describe my mood of late. The hernia diagnosis set off another round of me feeling old, weak and rundown.  However, the weekend itself was very low key and lazy which probably contributes to my mental state of being.  Although in a way it feels good to have a weekend with little to do, at least for me, after them I normally feel sort of worthless.

We had the good fortune of getting about an inch of rain which meant I was relieved of landscape watering duty.  The prolonged drought still had most of the grass in a stationary state so we didn’t have to mow either.  It wasn’t a cleaning weekend so we basically just had laundry and a few odds and ends to do.  

The weather this weekend was great, temps overnight around 60 and low humidity days in the 70’s.  I had the lanai door open for a good chunk of the weekend.  It was perfect weather once the rain cleared out. I watched the third quarter of the Eagles game out on the lanai.

Friday night the party van was supposed to be a done deal.  Well once again, it’s departure has been delayed.  The prospective buyer told me that she was in the middle of changing jobs and her prior employer was giving her a hard time, withholding her final pay.  She said it should be all straightened out by Saturday and she would be out tonight(Monday) to get it. Um ok, I sure hope so.  It gives me an uneasy feeling that she requires her most recent paycheck to complete the transaction.  I can only hope it all goes through.  If I get another excuse tonight it won’t be good.  I tried to call her number a couple times today to confirm we were all set for tonight but a fax machine picked up…

Over the weekend I got my first 2 calls on our lots in Lehigh that are for sale.  I got one call on each.  The one call was a realtor just doing his homework, the other one was some hispanic guy with a thick accent.  Neither call lead to anything.

Saturday night we had the neighbors over for dinner.  We haven’t seen them very much recently for no particular reason other than we both have been busy with something. A lot of the conversation was about Ali’s Pop Pop, old age, dying, all stuff I try to avoid thinking about as much as possible.  To escape I gladly assumed dinner clean up duty.

  After a good dinner we watched one of my many downloaded movies, “Over the Hedge”.  It’s one of what has become common place today, computer animated flicks.  It was short, funny and entertaining, a good combo.  We all enjoyed it. B+

Sunday Ali had to work.  I got up early on Sunday just like Saturday (up at 5:30).  I decided to take Nicki for her walk nice and early and we got back before Ali left for work.  I spent most of the morning playing WoW and then took a break to watch the Eagles game.  I wish I kept playing WoW…

That game was horrible.  Unlike the other three losses where they shoulda/coulda easily won any of the games, this one was lopsided, much more than the score indicated.  The Jaguars, who just lost to the Houston Texans the week before by 20 points and were playing their backup QB, DOMINATED, IN Philly.  They ran the ball at will, their defense kept the Eagles from doing much of anything. They made the Birds look like shit.  I never thought the Eagles had a chance to win the game once the second half rolled around.  Once again there was bad clock management, bad decision making, bushels of dropped passes and more stupid penalties.  Of course Andy took all the blame as he always does and as always, everyone is sick of hearing it.  For once we would love to hear him call his players out, chastise them for playing ignorantly and without heart but that will never happen. They go into the bye week 4-4 and now have the harder half of their schedule to go.

Even though I was told I have a small hernia and have my surgeon appointment tomorrow, I still have been going to the gym, just trying to take it easier.  I really feel defeated when I step in there.  Stuff just feels heavy, I just feel uninspired and I leave there feeling like I went through the motions instead of feeling like I accomplished something.  If I have surgery I assume I will be on a no exercise edict for some period of time, I will be crawling out of my skin by the time that is done.  I really want to work on getting my running back to where I can at least do 5k’s with Ali and my volleyball back to where I can play here and there. Before the hernia stuff I felt like I was making some decent progress towards both goals, now who knows.

 Hopefully this entry gave you the government recommended daily dose of whining….