Drowning

The last few days I have found myself drowning in a lot of negative thoughts that seemingly pop up out of nowhere and within milliseconds lead to a chain reaction of bullshit.  When that gets teamed up with the every morning occurrence of acute pain in my lower back quadrant that is approaching immobilizing at times, I am just a barrel full of sunshine and rainbows.  So as I am limping out to the chicken coop at 5:40AM to take care of Kathy, who I am watching fade away each day, I look up in the sky and see the bright full moon shining down on me.  I should have known.