Not perfect, Not What I Want

by Duf Anything and Everything

The Eagles took their first loss of the season last night to the Washington Commanders, a team they beat earlier in the year and was expected to beat again. Instead it was a sort of ugly game where the Eagles committed 3 turnovers which equals what they committed in the prior 8 games combined.  In addition the defense simply could not stop the Commanders, allowing them to run long drive after drive consuming tons of time.  I think Washington only punted once the entire game.  Even with all of those screw ups the Eagles still had a chance at the end of the game.  The Washington QB was hemmed in on a 3rd and long and instead of taking the hit decided to quickly take a knee.  Two Eagles defenders were already sliding towards him as he took the knee and knocked him over drawing a roughing the passer penalty.  It was an awful way to end the game.  It was a disappointing loss for sure but hopefully one the Birds can learn from and continue moving forward.

As I was watching the game I found myself flipping through my phone on various social media apps, mindlessly looking for stimulus I suppose.  Checking my various messaging apps serve a different need, the one where I am looking for a virtual connection to a human being.  This is not a recent change, since I became single my phone has become a much more integrated part of my existence and to be quite honest, I don’t particularly like it.

In the past when I was in a relationship my phone sat untouched on a counter somewhere, silenced and only checked periodically as needed.  Now I am wired in full time partly because of my Apple Watch, partly because of whatever it is that I feel is lacking in my existence right now.  I am hoping this holiday season has an opposite outcome of last year which was my first in this new state.  That time was filled with a lot of sorrow, anger and frustration.  I want this next month and a half with the two trips to be the exact opposite where I can focus on brighter futures and happier outcomes.  I need to be less connected to become more connected, if you know what I mean.