54 miles, We are going back, Altered
I woke up relatively early yesterday after yet another night of shitty sleep. I’m not quite sure how to fix it, my brain is dwelling on things in a way that prevents me from getting appreciable sleep. It’s unhealthy for me physically and mentally.
With the early start I did a rare Sunday blog entry where I recapped the sequence of events from Saturday which resulted in me being the potential owner of a new house that could upend pretty everything that has been my reality for the last two decades plus. I talked about some of the struggles but to be honest I was only skimming the surface of some of the conflicting thoughts I have been dealing with.
After eating breakfast and paying my bills I got stuff together to head out on a range test on my new Sherman S. I have had hardly any time to enjoy my new wheel for obvious reasons. I picked a course that combined going to the DD that is 10 miles away and then rolling it right into a ride to Ave Maria. This wheel has a very large battery so I need a lot of road for a range test. I was carrying high speed for the vast majority of the ride from 25 to just under 40mph at times. Despite the high speed I still had 27% battery remaining after riding 54 miles. At some point this week I am going to need to get back out on the wheel to burn up some more battery to give myself a final range number which I am expecting to be at least 70 miles. In the long video I shot I included an in depth discussion of the new house purchase, use the chapters to jump right to it, if interested.
When I got home I immediately worked on the long video edit. I finished it up just in time to shower and then head down to Brooks Burgers to watch the Eagles/SF game. My ex-boss and longtime friend Don met up with me there. I drank a number of beers and ate an entire 10 inch pizza myself as we watched the Eagles slowly pull away from the Niners. SF had pretty much everything that could go wrong, go wrong. Their QB hurt his arm early and then the backup got knocked out with a concussion, forcing the starter back in, but he basically couldn’t throw anymore so they had to almost exclusively run the ball, even when they were down 2+ scores. The Eagles took care of business and never took their foot off the Niners throat once they got ahead, a tendency a lot of prior Eagles teams lacked.
I saw the tail end of the Chiefs/Bengals game. It was an awful way for the Bengals to lose, giving up a 27 yard punt return and then a 15 yard personal foul when a Bengal defensive player shoved Mahomes when he was out of bounds, putting the Chiefs into easy game winning FG territory. The end result will be Andy Reid meeting up with his old team in the Super Bowl which will have countless story lines. I look forward to it.
I was so tired from the lack of sleep that when I laid on my bed to watch the game I almost immediately dozed off, not waking up until the final few minutes almost an hour later. However after showering and going back into bed I was immediately cursed with being unable to settle my mind.
Ever since I have been single in summer of 21, I found myself “liking” random motivational things that pop into my timeline on FB. By doing that my timeline is now flooded with them. Although it can get mildly annoying I do still find value in much of what is placed before my eyeballs. One of the statements that struck a chord with me last week was “Men settle where they find peace, not beauty.”
It is such a simple statement but so true, at least in my world. My happiest times have always been when I have felt at peace which can be fostered by stability, a loving relationship, unwavering trust/support and an over arching knowledge that everything was going to be ok. I am not at peace currently which is likely a driving force behind my sleep issues. I need to fix it.