Addict behavior

I have always considered myself for the most part to not have an addictive personality. I never smoked, only occasionally drink and never was interested in other drug use.  I eat reasonably (except when bulking), exercise routinely and try to make good choices. Although I don’t think I am an addict by nature, I think there have certainly been periods of my life when I exhibited addictive behaviors.  To me an addictive behavior is doing something repeatedly you know in the big picture is not good for you.

One example I can think of is all the time I spent with video games throughout my life.  There are certainly examples of playing games addictively, the most recent example being World of Warcraft the first couple years after it came out in the mid-2000’s.  I think addiction to technology is a real thing that I certainly have slipped in and out of during my life.  One other thing that I think I had become addicted to were relationships.

I have spent so much of my time since I was 17 years old in long term relationships at times I have felt like I don’t know how to function comfortably without being in one.  I think in it’s own way it is an addiction which could be good or bad, depending on who the partner is you are dealing with.  I have felt myself feeling like an addict where I am knowingly doing or thinking things that I know in the big picture or long term are not good for me. My inner sergeant eventually will grab me by the neck and scream enough until the course or behavior has been corrected.  It is an important thing to “maintain your frame” as a human being which basically means sticking by your core boundaries. If these boundaries are violated by others or even yourself, action must be taken.