Best in awhile

Last night was volleyball night. My team of three was myself and two women. Luckily for me they were two of the best women players in our group. We won every game but the last one, which we only lost by two points. I played well overall. During the second half of play I had several hits that were among the best I have had since resuming play last year. One in particular that was a hard angle and short was exceptionally satisfying. With the way my body works nowadays I just can not get moving in a way to allow me to hit effectively until I am thoroughly warmed up which takes a couple games.

It was again brutally humid, after the first two games I was already feeling gassed. Luckily I rebounded. Towards the end of play a beautiful sunset went down that myself and several other people were fortunate enough to capture. I also felt fortunate that despite two hours of pretty intense play my body held up more or less perfectly.

I have spent an overwhelming amount of my adult life in stable, structured, long term relationships. It’s a place where I felt I thrived. As I have progressed through life I became more self aware of things I have done wrong in those relationships and tried to learn and grow as a result. I’m not foolish enough to think I’ll ever have it all figured out. Even after the recent almost three years of trying and failing I still am willing to keep my mind and heart open to the idea of getting it right, this time.