Archives October 2024

Last night I fed AI the transcript from the three hour live stream Sunday night that was concerning my accident. The 10 minute synopsis podcast it created was the best one I have heard yet. Outside of a few mispronunciations it was almost perfect.

Even though I have been able to step back into my normal daily routine since everything went down Saturday I find myself in an odd state of mind. Last night after work I was walking Elsa and thoughts just started running through my head about how easily I could not be there, how instead I could be lying maimed in a hospital or dead. The thoughts trigger negative emotions which to me seem strange. I should be happy and grateful that I escaped as I did, and I am, but there are also these feelings of mortality and why am I still here that are entangled as well.

I wonder if the rest of my life is going to be separated clearly into before crash and after crash segments where things that used to be a certain way suddenly are not.

Last night I was at my computer for most of the evening. First I converted the three hour live stream into a podcast, a task I normally do. I then loaded up my video editor and brought up the clip of my crash. When you see the live video it is hard to see all that happened that resulted in my escaping serious injury, or death. I went through one frame at a time and got a clear picture of what occurred.

As I described before, I had no idea that the red truck in the picture was on the verge of hitting me. All I remembered was sliding into the middle lane and waiting to get hit. I thought I was on all fours for most of it. I wasn’t.

Instead right after this dive onto the road you see here my feet wound up in front of me almost like a baseball slide. I then sat up and by doing so apparently barely cleared my body from getting hit by the vehicle. Only then did I flip onto my hands and knees to slide to my final stop. I knew it was a close call but this looked like a razor thin margin from impact based on the images. I did a short video that included some of the stills you could not see originally.

I was able to get better sleep last night as my left elbow stung less than the night before. Keeping the area covered and bandaged is a challenge because of it’s location. I was able to go to the gym yesterday and have a decent workout which I was happy about. As of this point my intent is to try to play pickleball tomorrow as well although volleyball will be off the menu until the wound heals more. I still am finding myself unsettled and out of sorts but I feel that is to be expected.

I did have Ewheels reach out and offer to send me a different tire which I hopefully would be able to use to convert my Master to a tubeless configuration which would make the type of scenario that took me out very unlikely, something I would like.

I will work on getting my brain back on track, busy solving problems, working out tasks and thinking about the future.