Booked, Lame live, Raw sleep

Yesterday I pulled the trigger on buying tickets to fly to California in the middle of July. The main reason behind it was to attend Larry’s summer party. I have attended his Christmas party in the past so I figured why not? I’ll be out there for 5 days which should give me plenty of time to see, ride and hangout with my friends on the west coast. I haven’t decided where I am going to stay while there yet but I have a little time to figure that out.

This will be the third time I am going out there and the first time I will be doing so solo. The last two trips I went with my ex. Last years trip was an absolute cluster f where I basically had to hide the fact I was going from the world because of her issues. We broke it off around a week after returning. Looking back, it was pure insanity which is the way I would categorize much of my decision making when referring to her. I am approaching 6 months post madness and still am finding myself dwelling on aspects of that mess.

I did a rather brief live stream last night whose primary focus was to promote people joining Dawn’s YouTube channel as members. She had just turned that option on a day or two prior. I have had membership for a number of years and currently have 24 members. Being an attractive female, I am expecting Dawn to get many more members than I have pretty quickly which is a good thing.

Overall the live stream was a bit on the lame side. I didn’t have a ton of people in it since it was unannounced and a Tuesday night. My energy also was lacking due to my overall poor state of mind. I found myself just wanting to go to bed. I talked a bit about my funk during the stream, not that it will correct anything.

For the first time in a very long time I went to bed without any sort of sleep aid, no unisom, no edibles. I have been feeling plenty tired lately so I thought I would see how it would go. Surprisingly it went well. I slept pretty soundly through the night and was even able to go back to sleep rather easily after getting up to pee. I will see if I can continue to sleep normally without an assist. It would be my preference to do so.

Last year I was tacking patching the multitude of holes in the walls and trying to match up the paint afterward, with varying degrees of success and failure.